what makes me cry so hard-
finding out that all my desperate efforts to be perfect, to meause up to others standards, are failing and that I'll neve be what they or he wants me to be.
 
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what makes me laugh so hard-
 
anything hilarious and weird really
 
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I need this hair!

who understands me-
not many people
* my cat
* my sister (usually)
* my best friend (usually)
 
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current mood-
depressed but still hopeful.
i recently fell "in love" with my best friend's cousin and he feels the same however it's a long distance relationship with many obstacles trying to part us. we have no way of communicating besides the weekly/monthly in person visits, there is a two year age differencewhich doesn't affect us much now, but when he turns 18 and i'm only 16 things could get rough and finally my best friend doesn't really agree with me being with him so it's more or less beginning to tear our relationship.
 
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people i trust-
 
* my sister nichole
 
* my best friend lydia
 
* my cat vixen
 
xx <3